Friday, March 4, 2011
Getting a life
We want to be happy.
Many turn to alcohol, drugs (whether prescription or street), gambling, sex, work, religion, food.
What is it we want to get free from?
Our existential anxiety and what we perceive as external tormentors (stressors).
Existential anxiety might be a good thing. It might mean we are not on the right track in our life. We are not paying attention to the yearnings of our "real self". We have gotten off track, we are off balance, out of sorts, in a bad place in our lives.
Pay attention not so much to your tormentors but to your anxiety. Jesus said repeatedly, "What are you anxious about, oh you of little faith. If you only knew how much your Father loves you."
We all want to be liberated, to be free.
Beth: I just want to be free. I feel so trapped. There is nothing I can do.
David Markham: You want to be from what?
Beth: Everything! I don't know how much more of this I can take. At times I think I'm having a nervous breakdown.
David Markham: I know. At times things can seem overwhelming.
Beth: What should I do?
David Markham: You are looking for a silver bullet, a magic key, and I don't believe there is one. I can't tell you what to do, you will have to come to that yourself probably in an evolutionary way over time.
Beth: Myself? I have to find the answer myself? You're not going to help me?
David Markham: I would if I could, but I can't. The question is not so much what you want to get free from but what you want to be free to do. I can't tell you what's in your heart. Deep down what is it you really want to do with your life? You remember, in high school, how we used to put each other down saying "Get a life!" Well, that's your challenge. Obviously, your life is not working for you and you need to "get a life". What do you think, deep down, God is calling you to become, to do with your life?
Beth: (With a grin) So you're telling me it's up to me?
David Markham: Who else? It's your life.
David Markham: Okay?
Beth: I guess............................