Friday, February 6, 2009
Morning meditation - Laughing at tragedy
I think often about the love I have for my adult children. I feel terribly sad and guilty for the less than optimum upbringing they endured. I observe the problems that they struggle with which in no small way were influenced by their mother and my inability to be there for them in the ways they deserved.
Do other parents have regrets?
Does God have regrets?
Does God regret that God couldn't have done more for Adam and Eve so that they didn't commit the orginal sin and doom humankind to lives of hell?
I can imagine God crying in sadness, frustration, disappointment, fear for God gave Adam and Eve free will and therefore God, according to the story which has become the basis for much of our theology, was impotent, helpless, could only observe and suffer and not intervene.
Karl Jaspers said that tragedy is awareness in the excess of power. To know how things could be, should be, ought to be, and yet not have the power to make it happen fills one with terrible grief, helplessness, foreboding, and a sense of tragedy.
God knows how I feel watching my adult children because God has been there too.
The Buddhists tell us to let it go. The problem is in our attachment. If you don't care, you can't suffer, so detach, or maybe respond with compassion, but it is hard to be compassionate towards people suffering when you had a hand in creating the factors that they suffer from.
Unitarian Universalism says that it will all come out in the wash. We are all going to heaven sooner or later, and it looks like for us and those we love it will be later rather than sooner.
I suppose a sense of humor helps and a sense of reverence for the mystery of life.
Can you imagine God, watching Adam and Eve commit the original sin, laugh and say to the Godself, "there they go again, will they ever learn?"